A year ago...

Itu rasa sensasinya asli gue langsung nangis bener-bener nangis lega, terharu, bahagia bisa nyelesain tugas kepanitian dan dibilang sukses. Rame yg dateng, puas ngeliatin band-band yg tampil, seneng liat kebahagiaan anak-anak, pokoknya itu rasa bahagianya bener deh sali gabisa banget diungkapin dengan kata-kata. Rasanya tuh itu kebahagiaan yg sempurna. Ga percuma sampe berantem diem-diem sama beberapa anak OSIS yg ujung-ujungnya emang gabisa lepas dari mereka semua. Gue tau ko, mereka kayak gitu adalah bentuk sayang mereka ke gue, mereka cuma khawatir ke depannya but see? We're totally success!!! Sayang banget sama bokap nyokap yg gue tau mereka pasti sebenernya nanggung gosip-gosip tentang anak sulung perempuannya ini yg suka pulang malem yg gajelas darimananya padahal mereka yg gosipin gue gapernah tau apa aja yg terjadi pada diri gue. Gila, mereka bener-bener pengertian banget sampe gue pulang jam 12 malem, mereka masih setia nungguin dan gapernah marah-marah. Rasanya tuh..... sumpah gabisa ada yg nandingin deh! Asli rasanya masih mau nangis lagi inget-ingetnya hahahaha-_-

Dan setiap denger lagu dari band mereka, Sheila On 7 diputer, entah di radio, dari hp temen atau bahkan lagi nyanyi-nyanyi bareng, itu bener-bener punya kenangannya banget. Rasanya langsung ke flashback euphoria nyanyi sambil jingkrak-jingkrakan bareng mereka. Dan itu bener-bener rasanya sampe merinding seneng gimana gitu. Well, mereka bukan artis yg lagi hits bgt sih ya, ga kayak beberapa pensi yg bawain artis today's hits bgt tapi mereka tuh artis yg well known dan sepanjang masa. Mereka udah ada dari jamannya gue curut dengerin lagu mereka feat. Tasya yg Jangan Takut Akan Gelap ituloh. Dan sekarang gue bisa ketemu mereka langsung pas udah SMA. Band sepanjang masa yg walaupun gak hits tapi masih banyak yg setia menjadi pendengar mereka. Liat apa itu massanya sampe bejubel belakang-belakang gitu desek-desekan. Makasih banget buat para penonton yg setia berheboh-heboh ria bareng kita yaah:') gue sih gatau mereka masih inget pernah manggung di pensi kita apa enggak, yg pasti gue masih inget banget gimana perjuangan panitia buat ngedapetin mereka. Dari mulai nyari duit bareng sampe nyediain service yg best buat mereka. And then, ada yg tiba-tiba ngeline tengah malem pas banget tanggal 16 Juninya.....

Iya inget banget ko inget. Waktu itu lagi bersiap nginep dirumah Shidqy, gue bener-bener baru abis mandi jam 10an itu kalo gak salah terus kita mesti balik lagi ke sekolah karena ada keperluan dan mau bantu-bantu buat besoknya. Yg paling diinget adalah gue pake celana pendek... bener-bener baju tidur siap mau bobo cantik banget:/ terus sampe sana gue bantu Ary, gue misah sama Kukuh sama Shidqy yg bantuin di dalem, gue bantu diluar bareng sama Habib juga sampe yg digodain abang-abang gitu sampe parno sendiri akhirnya nyuruh Habib lagi wkwkwk. Dan setelah itu gue bareng dia buat sesuatu. Sesuatu yg kita juga sebenernya ga mikir mau bikin apa awalannya. Cuma asal bikin sesuatu yg menghiasi sign wall buat acara kita. Ya sebenernya yg bikin tulisannya dia sih, gue cuma bantu mewarnai(?) dan tentunya doa wkwkwk. Kita bener-bener bingung waktu Ary minta tolong bikinin sesuatu di wall sign itu dan yak, dengan segala keanehan kita, kita menciptakan sebuah tulisan simple tapi bermakna bgt bagi kita (yg bikin sih...wkwk). And then, This is our masterpiece!

Ini favorite decor di Closing MoonzherCup'12! Ya selain gue yg buat ya, tapi wall signnya tuh penuh banget padahal itu gede loh... sampe banyak yg rela naik-naik kursi buat sign on this wall! Salute banget deh pokoknya bener-bener ngegambarin bagaimana seru dan ramenya acara kita. Bener-bener ga nyangka ini tuh kejadian setahun yg lalu dan gue......... masih terjebak dengan orang yg sama :) dengan rutinitas yg sama tapi keadannya beda. He just my best friend ryt now. Who always there whenever I need him and me? do it too. Maybe this is our comfort zone. It doesn't like what they thought. We're not in that relationship, we just having some fun, do many jokes, had a lunch or dinner, haging out, had a random-chit-chat every night, helps each other ya just like that. I mean, we're just be a close-friend, no more. No lies, I'm happy with him because I can be the truly me. No more hiding about my bad habbit and be someone else. And so he's. I never complaint about his way to "kentut", "ngupil" or something else. Yap, He's my ex-boyfriend but who says that we can't be a bestfriend like this? No, our love story has ended. We know we can't have each other as a lovebird cause we have a difference. I'm a moslem and He's not. And we didn't wanna change what's ours own. Well, we knew that we've our own path and anything that we can do is just letting it flows. We just do what we want, what we love. He taught me so many lessons. From how to make him laugh till how to accept the truth that we can't be back together :) I know he has everything that I want, he can be a good listener, he knows everything that I hate either I love, he always can understand me, he knows how to make me "gak ngambek lagi", he can take a care of me, he always there to protects me like a big brother,  he knows when I lied and need a hug, he can complete me buuuuut only God who knows what I need. He'll give me the best one. No, I'm not that person who can't moving on and stuck in her past. I just didn't wanna think bout it for a while. I just wanna focus with my future. Graduate from the college with the best score, get the scholarship for magister of psychology, helping many people in my own clinic, and I'll build a sweet home for the orphans. I wanna make my parents proud of me with make them go to the mecca. I realized that I can't be too free like what I get at the high school. I've to face the real life from now. But I just wanna say BIG DANKEEEEE for him! Thanks for being the best partner, a cared close friend and a good brother for me. You've know that you're important for me, for my life. I know, I'm gonna miss you cause maybe you wouldn't be here anymore when I need you. Thanks for makes my high school's life wonderful and Goodluck, future architect. When I see you again, we've to be a success person in our path :)